Lyrics: Rubicon

Praying for myself, these thoughts I've tried to hide
I have faith in me, I hope this will survive
But it's tearing me apart, I can't hear the words
By which I die, so I must ask again, who will carry me?

I cannot deny, nothing can defend
From the helplessness that's cutting deep inside
And I can't prevent the thought that nothing's real
It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end

The strength I need to feel
The pride inside of me
And I fell behind the face
That's staring back at me
The anger and the pain
Of knowing where I am
I have come so far and I cannot return

Nothing I can do that I have not done
No words I can say, no truth left that I can see
So must I let this end, and everything fall apart
Before I live my life as I have always done

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for, something real that I can see
So nothing falls apart, so this does not end.
I cannot return, I can't start again

Nothing to deny, nothing to defend
From the helplessness, it's cutting me so deep insdie
And I can't prevent the thought that's nothing's real
It seems I'm waiting years for this day to end